Archive for August, 2010

August 15, 2010

OUR ENGAGEMENT STORY

“But life is long. And it is the long run that balances the short flare of interest and passion.” -Sylvia Plath

A year ago, I was in the midst of adjusting to a divorce and a new relationship, sorting out my anger with Heavenly Father, sorting out my anger at myself, when I met this boy named Jonathan. I didn’t quite remember much about our meeting except that he was a drummer. The day after our chance meeting he found me on facebook and requested me as a friend. He later sent me a message stating: “You are absolutely gorgeous. Just thought you should know.” I thought him to be very sweet but I was committed to my boyfriend at the time. The timing was not right for Jonathan and I to become anything more than friends. And thus we stayed facebook aquaintances for the better part of 6 mos.

We were both heavily scarred from previous experiences, some relationship and some personal decisions, but we were both looking for something real…something natural.

Then, in February of this year, I found myself single and was in no way looking for a new love interest. I had been counseled by friends and family to take my time and date and get to know myself. So that’s what I was doing. I had no intentions of getting into a relationship and certainly had no dreams of finding Mr. Right at that time. It was the day before Valentine’s Day and I was dealing with a love/hate of that day when I got a facebook message from Jonathan…this time inviting me to his show in San Antonio. I replied I might go, gave him my number, he invited me to hang out with his friends before, I went and something amazing happened in our brief meeting that night, so I stayed for his show and thus our road began.

We both had/have such busy schedules that we spoke when we could and he lived in Austin so we didn’t see each other again for a while. After about a month of texts and random phone calls and trips to parks and playgrounds we could feel something special was happening. I was so scared to put my heart out there again, but with Jonathan, it’s so natural. He is very easy to love.

Fast forward to now… the last 6 months of my life have been the most therapeutic, reflective, exciting times. I have never been in a relationship where who I am was good enough. My thoughts and feelings and beliefs are 100% accepted. I have loved and been loved in my life, but this love is unconditional… as it should be.

On my mother’s birthday… August 9th, 2010… Jonathan walked me to a playground where he had written in the sand. No one can know how perfect this was to us. He had printed every photo we had ever taken together (and we take a lot) and tied a ring in the rope around it. I answered the question written in the sand that night “Kim, will you marry me?” with no hesitation… “Yes.” And as I sat and thumbed through the 100+ photos, I knew I was exactly where I was supposed to be. That, in that moment, I had made the right decision and all the mistakes and good decisions that made up my life road were worth it. Each photo meant something different and unique to us. Some with friends, some with Jade and Lulu, some with just us, some of just me he liked, some of randoms objects and numbers that meant something to only us… all permanent reminders of our special connection.

I have had a ton of support from  friends and family lately but I have also faced some worry from friends who were nervous it was too soon, but all have reaffirmed what I have thought for 6 mos, that to know Jonathan is to love him. I love that people are concerned but I don’t think love has a time limit. I do think that when you finally get to a place where you are being yourself, you love yourself and you have no expectations on when love will come, it can. I am continually adjusting to my life being so drastically different now and I will continue to make mistakes, fall down and get up again, but one thing I am certain of is this love. He inspires me because of who he is. I never believed that saying “you find love when you aren’t looking” until now. Call me a true believer. The bad days go a little faster now, and the good ones linger forever. I am excited for our future together and having a love that will inspire our friends and children. One that doesn’t judge and is not built on anyone else’s idea of how love should be… just ours.

I will need a lot of advice on planning a wedding as this will be my first real one. So if there are any ideas or suggestions or good websites, feel free to share with me.

So that’s my engagement story… What’s yours?

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This is the real color… I did not want another diamond… I have always wanted an aquamarine stoned ring;)

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August 5, 2010

NIGHT OF FASHION/SAN ANTONIO VIDEOGRAPHER

I wish I had more time to be here but I’ve been away for good reason.
A while back I decided I wanted to get into doing more video and teaching projects. Through the relationships I’ve built over the past few months doors have opened to doing both.
I have the most awesome feeling when I see an idea or concept come to life and lately I have seen many.
I had the opportunity to produce my First TV show called “A Night of Fashion” hosted by my roommate and fellow webcaster Jennifer Coffey.
To be perfectly honest, I was super nervous about all the logistics of such a production. But I had amazing support from start to finish and through it all I learned a lot about myself and what I’m capable of. I really feel it’s these times in life that show us just how big our dreams can be.
My friend Chris helped film it all and Jen did an amazing job hosting it. I had some bumps along the way with editing but my awesome friend Mack helped me over them.
Jen brought me a ton of cheetos and skilttles and peanut butter and apples the whole time and Jonathan was an amazing support.
In the end, it’s a project I’m very proud of… Something I was happy to put my name on. I will continue to learn more and will someday look back on this as just a starting place.
For those of you who are local…you can watch it on Time Warner 988 under Art and Cultural.
Jen and I have also continued with our weekly webcast. You can check it out at http://ustream.tv/channel/Kim-n-jen. The photos last are of Jen and I switching personalities for a day. She even spray painted her hair red:)

I’ve also had the opportunity to start some projects with a social media group. My friend Melina and I have started speaking on branding and marketing your business, as well as, a project I will explain more about later.
For now I am excited about the big changes happening and all of the people I’ll be working with.
Today I am grateful…
For the opportunities
For the excitement
For the day.
Happy Thursday friends!

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August 1, 2010

JONATHAN SCOTT/AUSTIN MUSICIAN

he is:

my boyfriend.

a drummer.

my best friend.

funny.

eccentric.

loved by many.

intelligent.

creative.

caring.

carefree.

This boy is the calming force in my life. I met Jonathan after a year and a half of turmoil within my life and myself. He changed that. He allows me to be myself. He brings out the best in me and has taught me true, unconditional love. He makes me laugh when things get crazy. He makes me cry with the love he so freely gives. He loves his family and my children with such passion. He loves his profession with such conviction.

I never knew I could know love so deep until I found myself in love with him. The rough times in life seem smaller with him around. He has never raised his voice to me, nor I to him…something my past made me believe was impossible in a relationship. He helped warm the bitterness I had been carrying for so long.

He sees the world through the same glasses I do. He is colorful and full of life and attracts light in all that he does. He has taught me that no one is perfect and acceptance is key in relationships. He isn’t perfect. I am not perfect. Our love is.

I was reading a message that he wrote me with 100 things he loved about me and realized how I never want to take what I have for granted. This love doesn’t come often. It takes work to be understanding and grateful daily…to let the little stuff go…to be yourself and let love guide you.

So Jonathan I want you to know, I enjoy every moment I spend with you…

how you make me smile with one look

how you like the way I say “internet”

the love you show my friends, my family and my children

your love of Motley Crue and Bon Iver

the random photos you send me from the road

how you spend more time on your hair than I do

that you don’t care if I’m online, on Tv, or on the radio

how the crazy disappears when we are together

how you are so supportive of everything I do

that you dance with Madi

that you hold Jade when he’s sleeping

that you told my mother you loved her too

you watch my show like you are my biggest fan

you tell me I’m pretty even when I look a mess

that deep stare you give that takes my breath away

that we say the same thing at the same time constanly

that I feel safe with you

your humility, your passion and your hope

I love it all.

.iloveyou.

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ps folks: I have not been around due to some big decisions I had to make with the direction of my blog in reference to sponsors and such. I am also in the process of having a design of my sites made.

As you can notice I have no links to sponsors. Making the decision to not have sponsors and do my own thing was hard, but I simply have to time to be tied to projects others require, especially when the things I’d be promoting don’t really apply to my life anymore. So this blog is for me, when I want to write and how I want it to be.

Also, I had to change the name out of a tad bit of drama with another blogger who had already branded the Like Lucy name. I had no idea. Rosebud is my nickname so I’m okay with that:)

I miss this place and hope that now without all the demands, it can be a place of expression and sharing. Thanks to everyone who continues to email me words of support and love. xo