Archive for February, 2010

February 26, 2010

"I'd rather regret the things I've done than regret the things I haven't done." Lucille Ball

This blog really is becoming a documented journey to finding happiness and myself again. And I like it:)

I don't really have a ton of regrets in life. A few. But its the things I didn't do that I regret more. Chances missed. Opportunities lost.

So lately, I have really tried to take advantage of every little thing that has been put in front of me. I really feel good about where things are going right now. Really, Really good. I feel like for the first time in a long time, I am getting to do what I want. Be who I want to be. Go where I want to go. Taking the time to prioritize what's important and "who" is important.

So often, I have put things I wanted to do on the backburner because life happens. However, the last two weeks have been magic. 

Magic.

Renewing my faith in my ability to pull myself up when life gets rough. And reminding me that if you want something, you just have to try. I am not much for worrying about failure…so I've jumped. Doing things that make me happy and enrich my life. 

I am taking the time for me. To become better for my friends and family and that makes me happy.

Oh how I love Austin. so. much. I spent a lot of time there the last two weeks and I have to say, if given the chance, I would love to move there. Sometimes it already feels like home, if that makes sense:)

I got the opportunity to hang out with a lot of friends this week. I had client meetings in Austin to I was able to make an excuse to see everyone I knew there. I was so humbled that my friends were extremely busy themselves and yet made seeing me a priority. 

I am working on nurturing relationships with those who care about me. There is nothing more satisfying than people who put care about you just as much as you do them. I have so many of those people in my life right now and its an amazing feeling. We teach people how to treat us…truly. 

A few people I had the pleasure of hanging out with this week:

JJ…I met him doing live band karaoke, immediately knew he was awesome. Such a fun person and amazing musician. I promised him for almost a year I'd go see a show and I finally did…it was sooo worth it.

I took my friend Katie. Another friend I've known awhile just never had the opportunity to spend more time with. She is so fun!

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Katie and I also met up with AJ…she is AJthepurple on twitter and we had the best time chatting and sharing "internet" world experiences…She is a lovely girl and I look forward to seeing more of her.

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I'm finally taking the time to spend alone time too. Just going to have tea by myself and think about what I really want to be doing with my life. It's been refreshing to listen to myself for once.
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Also something I have made a priority, is spending more alone time with the kids… Nothing is better than the feeling that they know they have your complete attention… I love those special moments and hold onto them so tightly.

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So I hope you guys are taking the time to do things you enjoy and care about. Life is too short to have regrets. 

I missed quick tip Thursday last week… but better late than never…

Sometimes I want to take photos but I am not at the studio and its late so there is no natural lighting. So I was experimenting with an IKEA desk lamp and found a cool way to do indoor photos. I attached it to the table and sat LuLu in a chair by it. I adjusted my white balance so that it would compensate for the yellow tint and shot really close to her face. (you can also adjust colors in photoshop if you don't wanna do it manually)

This was a fun little headshot I was able to get for her project at school. It took 5 mins and no extra money. So get out those lights around your house and play:)IMG_1505web

I will be back next week with my first Featured Artist! So keep checking back!

❤ Kimmie

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February 19, 2010

Ability is of little account without opportunity. Lucille Ball

well hello friday! where did this week even go. 

mine is piled under rubble of 5 days of busy craziness and all i have are the photos below to remember it by. they are from a little vday photobooth party, as well as, random new friends i've been blessed to get to know lately. i love when people "get me".

so. my schedule is insanely hectic right now but i'm finally getting a balance with the mommy life and network kim life. but i am really enjoying this new lifestyle that has seemingly fell out of the sky.

i really believe things are getting more and more clear each day. the answers to my questions actually make sense. for now anyway. i am really taking the time to just be in the moments that happen daily. 

i feel like i am seeing more of the kids even though i am more busy. 
i feel like i am finding out more about who i am, even though i have been more lost than ever. 

the realness of life is that it moves on whether you are ready or not… in this case i wasn't ready, but feel blessed to have the opportunities that have come my way because of the changes to my world.

without change i would not be moving in the direction i had always seen for myself.
without change i still would be trying to fit a mold and making decisions out of fear.
without change i would have never seen things as they really were.
without change i would not have learned to cherish the little things.
without change i would have missed out on knowing some amazing people who make me want to be better than i can imagine… and those who are interested in helping me get there.

so things are…

good.scary.exciting.some days sad.most days happy.new.

with freedom comes brilliant perspective. so i'm letting go. and enjoying living with no strings attached. and trusting that the past does not paint who we are. it gives us the lines in which to draw our "new" selves.

i hope you guys are letting go and allowing change to happen. it feels good!

ps. next week, i shoot my first interview for my Artist feature for the blog…I am so nervous yet excited about it I can barely stand it. i am blessed to have my friend mack (who is easily my new fave person) helping me shoot and work out the specifics. check back for it soon!

jaedan and brittany are adorable girls!
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april just needed a little help coming out of her beautiful shell.

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the spicy amy

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my favorite thing about valentine's… candy hearts

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jacob, me and jody we were pretending to do a cheesy band pose??? no? 
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what happens when you have a bicycle hair dryer and wings lying around.

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april's attitude:)

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 friend jody… he is super nice and hilarious!
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jonathan "trying" to make art out of hair supplies…McGuyver?

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the lovely cynthia… from http://www.gomotah.com…super sweet 
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my other new fave "laura marie" and lacy the awesome makeup
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video shoot:) 
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the magical lulu
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and the amazing amber! (photo by mack damon)
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happy weekend ❤
February 14, 2010

You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world. Lucille Ball

having a bit of a love/hate relationship with Valentine's Day today… but I know we will be on better terms soon:)

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but… I won't let it stop me from spreading the love…

my friend Laura Marie's music video is complete and it's so loveable! She is an amazing artist and I feel so blessed to have been part of its making and even have a small silly cameo. Check it out, it warms the heart truly. 

today i love…
by beautiful jade and lulu
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my wonderful friends
watching cute couples get ice cream next door
watching cute girls pick out outfits for dates
lady A's "American Honey" (on repeat)
NAKED protein drinks
my new red lipstick
baking for friends and neighbors
the sting of the past fading more each day
late night chats with new friends
my newly touched up dyed hair
 flowers at my door
leaving the windows open
the color yellow
being blessed to be here for one more day
becoming more and more fearless.
and last but not least…
WEEK 7 of 52 things i LOVE…(i do believe i am caught up officially:)
Red Velvet Cupcakes (holy addiction) ❤
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i hope you all are having the BEST day. its a little bittersweet for me, but i'm not a hater… 
so Happy Valentine's Day!!
ps. I'm so excited about the "Featured Artist" section on my blog. I've had over 30 people ask to be featured locally and so many more from around the country. I have big plans for the video part of it and my friends are helping me with the logistics. Keep checking back for that!
❤ Kimmie

February 11, 2010

quality control…

so there's an episode of "I Love Lucy" where she is working as a quality control girl for chocolate and she can't keep up with the line so she starts eating the candy… that's how i feel… always behind lol

here is a video blog answering some questions I've received lately:) excuse my use of "um" and "really really" 

anddd…. as usual. i am catching up my 52 weeks of things i love photos… 

week 3: my vintage coffee table (8$ at a garage sale two years ago)

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week 4: i love my jetta

i have had this car for almost 7 years and its still going with some bumps and dings here and there:) 

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week 5: my bed. its the most cozy place in my house. its so soft:)


i also love my bedspread…i got it two years ago at a flea market for $20 and although its old, it looks new:) and happy…


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week 6: headbands.. for years i have been obsessed with them, for good hair days and for bad hair days:) this was a gift from my friend claire-bear. love you.

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Quick Tip Thursday…

so…many of you have asked about how to do diptychs of photos or collages without using photoshop… well I use www.picnik.com when I want a quick and simple collage…its free and easy to use 🙂 the image below was made using Picnik! 

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Happy Thursday<3




February 10, 2010

"It's a helluva start, being able to recognize what makes you happy." -lucille ball

Nickelback stop

love,
kimmie 
so. now that ive gotten that out of the way…
current faves in music right now:
Lady Antebellum…i am quite sure i have the biggest crush on his voice…its like butter.
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and LUDA… "how low"
its bomb really.
Old faves:
Phil Collins…"Another day in paradise"
and 
Stevie Nicks…"Gypsy"
So I have been listening to a lot of different music recently…branching out if you will.
I listen to:
Pop when I wanna dance.
Rock when I wanna stay mad.
Country for the stories.
Rap when I want to get something done.
Indie when I want to chill.
and 
Nothing when I need to figure it all out.
What music are you listening too?
ps. this photo was taken from my arkansas trip… my dad's opinion is and i quote in his thickest southern accent: "it looks like you are posin for a sports trophy!" love my daddy.
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Photo by: Keith Tilley
February 4, 2010

One of the things I learned the hard way was that it doesn' t pay to get discouraged. Keeping busy and making optimism a way of life can restore your faith in yourself. Lucille Ball

It's just like me to return to blogging only to have to take a small break:)

This post was started over a week ago but I was visiting my moma and daddy in Arkansas this last week and their internet is dreadfully slow.

Thanks to everyone who have supporting my return to blogging by posting comments or emailing me privately. I feel so blessed to have people actually take the time to see what I am up to. We are all living busy, challenging lives and I appreciate the love.

What a week/two weeks. Recap:

This photo pretty much explains the feeling of leaving Texas for a bit… I took lulu with me and I have to say I have never felt closer to her. This week holds a special place in my heart with her.

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I… listened to a million songs…. just a little glimpse of what came across my speakers… these are lyrics from some of the many songs that touched me all jumbled into one big mess:)

"i never dreamed home would end up where i don't belong… you know i love you but i just can't take this…have mercy baby, on a poor girl like me…what you feel is what you are and what you are is beautiful… cuz cowgirls don't cry, cry baby cry…listen to your heart, there's nothing else you can do… and when the day is done my moma's still by biggest fan… all the right friends in all the right places… i wanna know have you ever seen the rain… she's gone country, back to her roots… its gonna happen when its supposed to happen, one step at a time… if the world had a front porch like we did back then, we still have our problems but we'd all be friends… im walking away from the troubles in my life… if you wanna take a ride wit me… i movin on… im cleanin out my closet."

i drove. a lot. prayed. a lot more…for myself, my family and my friends. cried with my moma. slept with my moma for the first time in 15 years. ask questions like "why are things so crazy right now?" "what have i done to contribute to the questions in my life?" "who do i want to be as a mother, friend, sister/daughter?" "what do i need to change?"

Soul-searching doesn't even begin to explain what the last two weeks to a year has been like for me. I have had to take a really good look at myself and my environment, face some harsh realities and move forward. I like to think of it as a bit of forced maturity:) It has come fast and hard…and so far I think I am taking it better than I thought. 

Recently, I lost someone dear to my heart. I will miss him and take so much good from our relationship, but I know it's what was always meant to be. I feel my heart has taken a crazy beating this last year, but I am learning that losing control of situations is actually healthy. It forces me to be more accepting of things i can not change. The recent changes in my life are molding who I will be in the future and for that I feel blessed it's happening. Even when it hurts the most. Acceptance is scary yet liberating though.

I have some amazing opportunities coming my way and I have been given the chance to turn things around. I am a true believer in giving and receiving second chances. I don't take that lightly. My friends have surrounded me like an army and for that, I can not express my love for you guys. Thank you for the "matter of fact" opinions and shoulders to lean on. 

In the past I have not been one to share personal things so openly. However, it is through sharing with complete strangers that has allowed me to learn from others' experiences this last year, allowed me to meet some strong/amazing women and men. I am blessed for the people who have entered my life lately and I plan on nurturing those relationships, as well as, focusing on some old ones that have been neglected due to my need to deal this year. I am learning that by helping others, I am healing. 

I have such a long way to go before I am the person I want to be, but I believe that through sharing, loving and making optimism a way of life again, I will get there. Probably not as soon as I like, but better late than never right? 

So… things from here on out should be much brighter:) 

On a MUCH lighter note. I met some really cool people this past week. One's I was blessed shared their time and little snippets of life with me. Will and Erin had me in their home for a night and made me feel really welcome. It was my first meeting with them and I am happy to have met such wonderful people. And we are definitely dorks for these photos:)

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This was our Olan Mills poses…will's face haha

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I also had breakfast with Rachel. I have known her via internet for over a year, but loved getting to see her face to face. What a great girl!

And I am always excited when my friends start blogging and my friend Alaina started a blog documenting her spiritual journey.

Check them all out… you won't be disappointed.

I also had three senior shoots while I was in Arkansas… This girl Calie really opened my eyes to what it means to go through trials. She is a strong young lady who has been through some big things in her life… I was humbled to learn so much in our two hours together, especially since she is 10 years younger than me. I love when photography turns into much more than just photos:)

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Lastly… I'll be doing something around here called "Quick Tip Thursday"… basically just little things I find from time to time that help in certain situations.

I'm always getting questions about sharing tips on doing photography without buying expensive equipment… my dad is very creative and taught us to make things from nothing. (For those who have asked about in studio lighting tips, I'll be covering that
separately:)

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9;s question: What do you do when it gets dark and you don't have extra lighting but want to keep shooting?

Answer: Utilize your car headlights. 

In the photo below, it got very dark but we wanted to shoot anyway. We placed the car far away enough to light the photo without being too bright, lined up the lighting with my face, and shot without a flash. This ensured we had the lighting where we wanted it. There is no extra lighting used here…

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When you are limited… you have to get creative. This could be used for scary photos or even adding more lighting when you have existing light. Have fun!

I plan on being around here a lot more!