sigh. it has been forever since i sat in front of my computer and wrote a blog post. there are so many reasons and excuses but i think i'll just wrap everything into the rambling below. i feel it explains where i have been, where i am now, and where i would like to go.
most importantly, i am happy to be back to blogging and sharing with many of the wonderful people whom i have met the last couple of years or loved my whole life.
Truth is. if you are looking for rainbows and hearts. a portrayal of a perfect life, this blog is not for you.
Truth is. if you are looking for four letter words and bitterness, or reasons to hate life, this blog is not for you either.
Truth is. its for me. its for my children. its for your entertainment. its about sharing.
Truth is. over the last year, i lost a husband to divorce, lost myself, lost a hobby, lost my faith, and almost lost my mind.
Truth is. i went from being a stay at home mom of 6 years to being a single parent living on one income.
Truth is. it has been hard. it has been educational. it has been character building. it has been humbling.
Truth is. over this same year, i gained a since of self worth, learned to love again, found my faith, let go of those who were unhealthy in my world and gained/reacquired some amazing people in my life.
Truth is. i made some good choices, i made some horrible choices, i choose to forgive, i will not forget.
Truth is. i took a year to focus on my health, my children, my happiness.
Truth is. i am still learning to let go. i am still desperately trying to let go. i am loving letting go.
Truth is. i don't know you. you don't know me. but we can love each other. share with each other. enrich one another.
Truth is. i am in awe of and completely blessed by the amazing things that have happened in my life lately.
Truth is. i am proud to finally call myself a professional photographer although i have so much to learn. i am still proud of how hard i have worked to get to this exciting place.
Truth is. i cherish the people who love me, even if i am not published in a magazine, or on tv, or on the internet. the ones who think more of me than paper, cameras, and type. the ones who call. the ones who write. the ones who send a little online "wave". the ones who matter.
Truth is. i still have a health condition that i fight daily.
Truth is. most days i win. some days i don't.
Truth is. this blog is not about explaining myself. i won't.
Truth is. this blog is not about owing anyone anything. i don't.
Truth is. i love taking photos. i love writing. i love sharing with beautiful, inspiring people.
Truth is. i have been uplifted and broken all at the same time.
Truth is. i have/am facing my past.
Truth is. sometimes its been beautiful. sometimes its been a nightmare. either way, it's the past.
Truth is. i am not perfect. i am not bitter. i am trying just like you.
Truth is. i am okay with that.
if you made it through all of that, i applaud you.
i can't not explain how excited i am for the things i will doing on my blog this year. i have fun things planned with some inspiring people. things to share, things to show, things to teach, it's gonna be a fun time and i thank you for coming my way.
some things included in the "goings on" around here…
"Me" Mondays (all the things i love, my self portraits, my memories, my life)
"What we say" Wednesdays vblogs of jade and lulu, they are the cutest, smartest kids, but they are real and hilarious…this will be topics they want to talk about and i promise they will not dissappoint and vblogs of my own thoughts and rants)
"Friends" Fridays (artists or friends i respect and feel like the world should know)
and my 52 week "things i love" self portraits…
week one: hats
week two: red hair
There will be videos. There will be photos, some of others, a lot of me. There will be "how tos" and a whole lot of ramblings from the heart. There will be a lot of laughs and tears. But would you expect anything else from me?
This is not my photography blog. If you are looking for that one, it will be live next week!
This was my show and tell for the Bleubird Vintage blog… check it out.
stop back again soon and smile…it increases the value of your face:)
this was from Jen's wedding. i usually hate photos of myself laughing but i am glad someone caught it:)
ps. i am still working on the design aspects of le blog… i was just tired of waiting and my sponsors were getting restless. if you are a sponsor and you are not listed, i am probably waiting for your logo:)
and to clarify… the posts below are over a year old. the timestamps are not accurate, they were reconfigured when i updated the blog.