i have spent to much time in the chasm.
allowing my life to be hell instead of heaven.
i have decided to not let this destroy me.
i will no longer give power to hopeless
i have an understanding of how i have to live now.
i recognize that the pity party should be over.
i may not be able to choose what
happens to me…but i can choose how i react.
i can’t choose another body.
but i can take care of the one i have.
so i choose heaven.
i will always choose heaven.
UPDATE: i have finally gotten some answers…
1. i have fibromyalgia
2. i have occipital neuropathy (which is something in my neck/ head)
3. i have an early onset of migraine disease
so at least i have names to things now and the trial and error process begins…so any suggestions…let me know.
i had no idea how many people had these same things until now…thanks for opening up and sharing all your stories with me…i can’t list you all, but thanks for "choosing" to open yourselves up to a complete stranger.
so what to expect from me now:
i will be taking photos and painting and scrapping as my body permits.
i will not feel guilty when it does not.
i will be focusing on my family and my health…
but i have already started the wheels moving creatively.
i will be "making" and "capturing"…just on a more regulated level:)
again…thank for everything from everyone…this wonderful world of caring and creative women has inspired me to let go of my bitterness…which was created as a result of many different things.
but i choose. and i choose heaven. in everything.
how about you? anyone else choosing heaven with me?