I have had a lot of time to think over this last month…and I have come to really see what's most important in life….my kids. I think this sickness has created a time for me to make some changes…within myself and within my family…I feel soooo guilty that with everything going on with me I haven't been able to really be "present" with the kids birthdays…Madi turned 4 today and Jade turned 5 last week.
I'll also take this opportunity to answer a question I have gotten a few times in the past…
"Do you think you would get more done if you didn't have kids?"
"Do you think you would be more creative without kids?"
My answer is No. period. When I had kids, I experienced a level of creativeness that comes when you are able to see things through the eyes of a child…when you are able to love more deeply than you could imagine otherwise…when you are able to see God's creation wake up every morning and tell you stories about Unicorns and Dinosaurs with rainbows and jungles and crocodiles.
When life is all about cartoons and popsicles and learning to read. Of course they are time consuming…but the reward is so worth it…truly.
Ps. i went to the cardiologist today and I have 5 tests this week and next…so i will be absent once again:)