...I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be…
This post is dedicated to my Madi-Kay…this last year has provided some wonderful moments…helping me to forgive myself for not giving my all to her during my sickness after she was born.
Tuesday night we were at dinner an the kids got these question cards in their kids meals…
we each took turns reading and answering the cards…Jaden was so into it….so serious…Madi, not so much….
I will now share the conversation…
Skyler: Okay Madi your turn, "True or False…rabbits cages need to be changed…"
Madi: (over skyler)…..TRUE
Skyler: wait for the entire question Madi
Madi: "FALSE" (eyes wandering)
Skyler: okay ready
Skyler: "rabbits cages need to be changed every…."
Madi: TRUE (giggles)
Skyler: "oh geez, you are so ADD like your mom!"
Jaden: "okay madi, listen to the whole question"
Kim and Madi: (laughing at each other)
Skyler: (shocked face) laughing
Kim and Madi: (laughing forever it seemed)
Jaden: (annoyed because he is the genius kid who NEEDS to know the answer already)
Madi: (singing her own made up song at this point)
Skyler: "i hope you know she gets that from you!"
Kim: (in a moment of realization with a bit of pride) "i do now."
Jaden: "Can we PLEASE answer the question already!"
I was cleaning the kids room and found all of these "household" items under madi’s bed in the corner all neatly stacked. I thought it was the weirdest thing ever! Magazines, spoons, pencils, screws, RANDOM stuff. but all neat.
and then i remembered…
my moma telling me that when i was little i used to hide things and i hid her wedding ring….
my dad gave me another ring and said "go put this one where you put the other one" and i took the ring and placed it under their bed on the railing… and there sat the other rings and a few other items…all lined up neatly.
It’s a fun moment to realize that your daughter really is YOUR daughter…
I have often worried if my bond with her was damaged when i was sick….if somehow the time I lost would matter….Now I know it doesn’t. Because NOW, in this moment….she is mine. She is me….In her, I see myself. And I am blessed.